Hello again and Happy Thursday!

I hope that if you had a chance to read yesterday's post, that you were encouraged to love the lost better. Sometimes I get so focused on me me me, my growth, my relationship with the Lord, my stuff that I forget that all that love and goodness God has poured out in my life is not for me to keep but to share with others! My prayer for the last half of 2015 is that God would awaken our hearts to love the lost, share the Gospel of Jesus Christ and see more and more people give their lives to Him.

Hello sweet friends! We are back in Texas after a fun time in Louisiana visiting family and working in New Orleans. My fingers have been yeeeearning for the keyboard, and I finally have a little sliver of time to myself this afternoon to share what has been on my heart! 

Since the last time I wrote, there have been MANY things that have happened in the political sphere that have been tough for Christians, particularly gay marriage being legalized nationwide.

My number one question since that ruling has been, "Lord, how do I respond?" Do I speak out? Do I write a post about Biblical marriage? Should I state my case and defend my beliefs? Should I write about homosexuality or gender identity? Do I just not write anything at all?

As I have mulled over this in my mind, asking God if there is anything He wants me to say, I have heard again and again God asking me this one simple question:

How have you loved today?

It's no secret that I'm a Christian. I talk about God a lot here on my blog, but I realized I have never really shared WHY I am a Christian. My heart is that you get a glimpse into why I have chosen to love and serve the God of the Bible. It's not just because I feel like it's the "right thing to do." It's not because I'm old-fashioned. But it's because God has lovingly pursued me and been so intimately involved in my life, that I couldn't help but give my life to Him.

Have you ever had a season where you felt like you were drowning? Where you felt like you completely lost your footing? Where life seemed confusing and you began to question everything you were doing? That is the season I have been in for the last 8 weeks. Needless to say, this "happy little headquarters" hasn't been so happy!

Since our Vision Retreat, we have had a ridiculous amount of obstacles head our way. And I’m not one to blame the devil for every bad thing that happens in life… but what’s been happening sure makes me wonder if he’s got anything to do with it!  We’ve had tough times in our finances and tough times in our health, but the worst thing for me has been what’s been going on up in this brain of mine.

Indecisiveness has plagued me. Every time I sit down to write, I question what I’m writing. Every time I tell my kids no about something, I question if that was the right choice. And lately, every time I feel like I have a firm stance on a social issue, I question if that’s the right stance.